End of summer, beginning of a new chapter

Well, summer has drawn to a close, my friends are back at school and starting classes, and I am packing up to move. I landed a job at Southeastern Baptist Theological Seminary, which I am very excited about!

I move on Monday to Wake Forest, NC and start work as the News and Information Specialist on Tuesday. I found an apartment, and I think I'm going to love it! The thrill of being on my own, decorating my own place, caring for my space, and cooking for myself is very real right now. That might all change after a couple weeks on my own, but we'll see.

My apartment won't be ready until almost 2 weeks after I move to Wake Forest, so that means I'll be living on campus in the girl's dorm. Though I'm thankful for such a cost-efficient solution (believe me, saving money is definitely something I am into right now) I am not excited about going back to dorm life, even if for 2 weeks. I think it will be an awkward transition. Mom thinks it's a great way to focus solely on my job for the first two weeks. The other benefit I see is maybe meeting some girls to become friends with who AREN'T married, like all of my contacts over there are!

I am just excited to get into my new place and start to put together everything I have bought to decorate it! Mom said I should do a blog about "How to Furnish and Decorate an Apartment for $1,000" which is what I have done. The Lord has blessed me so much in my hunt for good bargains on nice furniture, etc. Maybe more to come on that subject later (with pictures!).

Tomorrow I am driving to Jackson to see some of my college friends one last time before I move. It will be really good to see them and hang out, but also bittersweet to say goodbye. My new home in Wake Forest/Raleigh is 10 1/2 hours from Jackson, so I don't see myself going back in the near future once I start the job.

Please pray for my transition, both into the new job and apartment, but also into life by myself. I think it will be really good for me to live alone, and I just hope I can hack it!

I'm a graduate!

Saturday I graduated from Union University, after 4 wonderful years. I had a great weekend with my parents and Brian, and my aunt and uncle. It was beautiful weather all weekend, so it made the outside-hanging out much more enjoyable!

Since Saturday night, when I walked across the stage and received my diploma, I have been feeling like everything is a little surreal and reminiscent of this time 4 years ago. Once again, I stand on the edge. I know and love what is behind me, but I can't go back. I don't know what lies ahead, but I am ready to jump into it!

I have been trying to unpack and get settled back into Maryville (aka, SLOW) life since I got home last night. It's been a good day, but I need to face reality tomorrow. That means, sending out job applications, resumes, clips, etc. in hopes of landing a "career" type job. Also, I need to be calling River Rat to see if they'll take me back for a few weeks this summer :) That'd be dandy, so I'd have some income!

I'm still looking at Denver, DC and Nashville. I am so torn about Nashville. On one hand, I don't want to move there, because I feel like it is so safe and not a challenge for me. Denver seems so exciting and like such an amazing growing experience. However, my family is in Maryville, and I don't know that I want to move 20 hours away. Also, I probably have the best chance of getting a Nashville job over anything else. So....we shall see I guess. If you read this, I ask for your prayers. I need discernment over where the Lord wants me to be, and what I ought to be doing.

Less than a week....

It's Monday night, and I graduate (Lord willing) on Saturday. I cannot believe it is this close. I have had a wonderful couple of days of "finals week" as i have not been studying much, but rather playing, laying out, hanging out with Ben and friends, and enjoying my last days at Union.

I am growing increasingly sad to leave this place. It has been my home, my domain, my stomping grounds, whatever for four years, and after Saturday, I don't know if I will ever come back.

The devil has been working hard to make me angry and ready to get out, so that I will forget to cherish all of the great memories I made here. Last week, my computer crashed before I had 3 papers due, and I lost part of a magaine article I had written 5 minutes before it was due. So, I panicked, but the Lord sustained me, made everything OK, and gave me peace.

Now I am on a bittersweet journey through these last few days of my life here. I cried in church on Sunday when we sang "You are God alone. Before time began, you were on your throne. You are God alone" because I know those words are true, but I am finding it hard to always trust His plan and rest in His sovereignity. I know He will bring about good things for me, but its so hard to live that, when I know I am leaving one of the best times of my life.

I am excited about the next phase though, whatever that may be. A move to Denver perhaps, a new job, a new apartment, quality time with Ben, and meeting new people! I am looking forward to seeing my family on Friday and getting home to rest and enjoy the simple pleasures of life at home in Maryville for a few weeks. Aftet that, who knows where I'll be or what I'll be doing? I sure don't!

Two weeks till graduation

It's amazing how much can change in a week. Really, it's amazing how much can change in a day. On Monday, after posting my last entry, I had a talk with my roommate.

Jenn was the one I was supposed to be living with in Nashville after graduation. We had both been job hunting there, and had gone to look at apartments together. I was not really any more excited to move to Nashville after looking at apartments than I was after Spring Break, when I first realized I don't really want to be living in Nashville right now. Actually, Nashville isn't terrible, nor is it completely crossed off, but it definately hasn't been my first choice in a while.

More than anything, I have been feeling reluctant about Nashville, but tied to Jenn, because I would be a crummy friend if I bailed now, and I knew she didn't want to move there alone.

Anyways, we talked Monday, and she told me she did not have a peace about Nashville, and she was moving home instead. The Lord used her reluctance to free me from a commitment I no longer wanted to keep! Praise the Lord. I was free to do what I wanted!

Since Monday, I have checked out jobs in Denver (choice #1) as well as D.C. (choice #2, but the cost of living is SO high). I will begin sending out my resume as soon as possible, and see what doors the Lord opens up.

I am trusting Him to provide a job, an apartment, and a roomie-even though I don't know a soul in either city! He is faithful, and He will provide, if I will only wait on Him!

"...See I set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to His voice, and hold fast to Him." ~Deuteronomy 30:19-20.

Three weeks till graduation

I am graduating from college in 3 weeks. In my mind, I am graduating and leaving behind that which I know and am exceedingly comfortable in. This perceieved comfort level might be the reason I want the next phase to push me, and cause me to grow, but unfortunately, I don't know what exactly that next phase will be.

I want to be pushed out of my comfort zone. I want to be excited about my job, and my life. I want to do something now, while I am young and without anything major tying me down, that I will probably never do later in life. Does this mean moving to a huge city (DC, Chicago), moving to another country (in Latin America or Italy), or merely moving to Nashville, and trusting the Lord to make it exciting enough for me.....I wish I knew.

If you read this, please pray for guidance and direction, and that I stay in the Lord's will for my life, and not my own. I am having trouble distinguishing His desires from my own.

Lord, give me a discerning heart.