In sickness and in health....

I've had just enough of the spotlight
When it burns bright
To see how it gets in the blood
And I've tasted my share
Of the sweet life
And the wild ride
And found a little is not quite enough

I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change

Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you

I've seen just enough of the quick buys
Of the best lies
To know how broader goals can be drawn away

I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you

'Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you
Compared to you
'Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you
So I surrender all

Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride

Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you
Filled with you
Empty me

That song, Empty Me by Chris Sligh, has been ringing in my head today. The lyrics are such a challenge to me and a reminder that the little things get in the way and cause me to lose my focus on the Lord. It has been my prayer that God would show me those things that get in the way of my relationship with Him, and then give me the strength to let go of them, so I can be emptied and filled with His sweet spirit.

Today and the last couple of days have shown me, once again, how easily I can stray and how much I rely on things of this world, when I should only rely on him. Even things that are good and natural to wish for - in particular good health - can shift my focus off of the surpassing greatness of the Lord and onto my own petty life.

Adrian has been sick the last few days, Ben is suffering from some kind of an itchiness that resulted in a huge, bloody spot on his shoulder (a hot spot) that makes him feel pretty crappy, and I had a migraine today, something that happens occasionally. All of these ailments, which are so minor in relation to the sickness of my heart, only drag me away from recognizing the goodness and grace found in Christ alone. I am coming to grips anew with the challenge: Is everything a lesser thing compared to Christ in my life? I'm ashamed to say it isn't.

I all-too-often place value on my sleep, my relationships, my health, my comfort, my self-esteem, my family...whatever, that isn't placed on the Lord. He alone is of surpassing value, and everything in my life is only in proper perspective when Christ is valued most highly.

Things get so out of whack when I take him off the "throne of my heart" and replace him with those lesser things. It's only when he has the proper place in my heart and in my life and in my thoughts that I will have a proper perspective on the value of other things in my life, which are all lesser compared to my Lord.

You got here HOW?

So, looking through my website's stats today, I noticed there are some really unique search terms people type in that bring them to my blog. Some of the more common (and understandable) ones are searches for:

-Lyrics to Natalie Grant's song "Held" (This is the #1 search phrase that brings people to my blog)
- heartbeat for the nations
-Lauren Crane
-Various names mentioned in the blog or in the blogroll links

Those I get, pretty easily. Some are a little more cryptic as to why it brought you to my blog, but then I understand after a little research....

-"my dog is my child"
-"advanced elements kayak"
-"how to break into car with wire" (Burglars on my site?? Yikes! I hope that doesn't make me an accomplice)
-"do wake forest dorms have dressers?"
-"within a yard of hell"

This last group I just find funny! Some I understand, some I have no idea why my site came up when this was searched for:

-"Strap on tanning goggles"
-"how can i turn back time in my marriage"
-"why does my female dog foam at the mouth when she goes outside?" and "my dog bit a toad's head and foam was in his mouth" and "my dog foams at his mouth when walking" (What the heck?? What is wrong with all these dogs??)
-"Lauren Crane dancing" (Did someone really want to see ME dancing, or were they searching for "Lauren Crane: This Summer's Hottest Club Banger..." whose blog is 1 letter off from mine. Oh sheesh.)
-"I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO GROW i'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BE THIS WAY" (I am curious what "way" this is....Do I want to know?)
-"dresses for fat people"
-"bachelorette jenga"
-"brian crane" pickles (Hmm....)
-"B.O.S.S. Pimps Nation"..... (Uh-huh.)
-"Spiritual" "kayak" "godly" (All great things. Not seeing how they are necessarily related.)

Anyways, I just got a kick out of reading those! If you're a visitor to my site, leave me a comment and tell me what you searched to get here!

Why today is a good day....

1) It's the first day of fall, which happens to be one of my favorite seasons
2) The weather is GORGEOUS, telling me -not only that it's fall- but that it's going to be a good fall!
3) I comfortably busted out a long-sleeved shirt today...Time to reverse the wardrobe again!
4) I ate Moe's for lunch
5) My incredible boyfriend was here for the weekend with me, and I'll see him again next week!
6) Bedtime came early the last 2 nights, praise the Lord! It felt so good.
7) I have been able to daydream about fun trips to take, which is always a nice mental vacay
8) My voice is back in a big way. No singing yet, but, boy, am I talking!
9) My Fantasy Football team whooped up on Jason's (my boss's) this week. Reminds me of the day I did my interview and beat everyone in the office at PIG...
10) Also, the gazing balls are back in full-force on the lawn. Not all of you will know what I am talking about, but some will. The world seems right again now that they have returned from a several week hiatus :)

Lastly, but certain not the least reason my day is good, is that I am being challenged today to love my Savior more. Seeing that he's the only certain good thing in my life, that's a pretty good place to be....

Turkish Delight and other randomness

Any Narnia fans out there? If so, you should catch that reference in the title. I actually tried Turkish Delight last night at a place called....Turkish Delight. Go figure. The candy is kind of like a flavored gummy bear coated in powdered sugar...better than I expected, but not necessarily anything I feel the need to have on a repeat basis. However, I will say that I was surprised to find that somehow they made the "rose flavor" actually taste how I imagine a rose would.

Anyways, the Turkish Delight foray came after a tasty dinner at Hi5 with Teran, JJ and Adrian. If you live in Raleigh, you must check it out. All the food is $5!! I got the "stuffed" burger which has the killer combination of bleu cheese, bacon, mushrooms and caramelized onions....Delicious. Plus, since Hi5 is owned by the same people who own Red Room and Bogarts (in the same building, basically), we were able to have some free salsa lessons at Red Room, without paying the cover, since we had just eaten at Hi5. Hey - I try to be conscious of the whole money thing: Dinner, dessert and salsa lessons for $25? Not bad, I think.

The fun night out came on the heels of being sick on Wednesday (sinus stuff, maybe....Just a seriously sore throat) and studying my little tail off for my first seminary exam. I took that yesterday afternoon, and feel fairly confident that I did well! I'm just glad it's over. So last night out was, for me, a "Hurray! Adrian is here!" and "Hurray! I'm done with my exam!" kind of night. It unfortunately seemed to not agree with my throat, which got severely sore again as the night progressed. No biggie today, except I can't talk.

This morning I tried to go through a drive-thru...That did not work out so well for me. Not only are McD's workers not the friendliest crew on the planet, but when someone is desparately whispering into the speaker trying to place an order, they get a tad irate at not being able to hear them. I should have just gone inside, but I was feeling lazy like that. Oh well.

Anyways, if we need to communicate, until further notice, the telephone is probably not the way to do that, unless you happen to like to listen to unintelligible whispers!

Things That Make Me Go "Hmmm...."

Life is odd. Here are some thoughts:

1) It was record-breaking heat this weekend. Today, although it's mid-September, is still in the 90s. Mind you, that's fine with me, although I wouldn't complain if fall started soon. But why, oh why, in 80-90 degree heat was the heat on in my office building this weekend?? Lunacy.

2) Another thing that is lunacy is the GAS prices! Ridiculous! Many places here in Raleigh are sold out or charging an arm and a leg for a gallon of gas. For example, it ranges from $3.99 to $4.39 around my little ole' town. That's a jump of AT LEAST 40 cents from when I filled up pre-craziness, thanks to Adrian. The most ironic thing is that the price for a barrel of gas actually dropped to below $100 for the first time in a long while....Which should make prices go down, not up, right? Notsomuch, apparently.

3) Speaking of my amazing boyfriend, isn't it ironic that I - who swore never to do the long distance thing - am in love with someone who lives 4 hours away. It's not one of my favorite things about this relationship, let me tell you. However, also ironically enough, I am OK with it for now, even though it makes things more difficult. It just makes me appreciate the times we are together that much more, like this weekend when I get to see him!!

4) It is also somewhat funny (perturbing, whichever) that out of all the things in my bedroom, Ben decided to shred the one that inflicts pain on him. Last night, getting home from small group, I found shredded newspaper all over my room. Where did it come from? His whoopin' stick. It's the rolled up/taped up newspapers I use to spank him....If that's not an "in your face" I'm not sure what is. He wasn't super-selective though: He also got a hold of a blanket, an important undergarment and a favorite book.